And I get it. I've been there. What you are going through is normal. It's called LIFE. But no one gives you a heads up on it.
Like you, I went to college, got good grades, landed my dream job, made more money than my parents had ever seen yet I was lost, unhappy but didn't want to admit it because admission would make me a failure.
So I stuffed my emotions down with food (gained 40 lbs in 6 months), developed an eating disorder which led to a cocaine habit which led to a toxic relationship. #goodtimes
It wasn't until my Dad suddenly died when I was 26, did I stop to take stock of my life and asked myself, "Is this really want I want?" And the answer was no.
So over the next 4 years I went on a quest of self discovery of undoing all the things I had been taught over the years that led me to where I was that day.
And where I am at today, I'm heather than I have ever been (haven't been sick in 10 years), wrote a book, host a podcast, have traveled the world, have meaning fulrealtionships, get paid to do what I love and am happy.